Coma.

I really miss Diyahna. It seems that all I still get is her mad at me, I wanna message and say i'm sorry. But all I say is sorry. I woke up extremely groggy and Instead of 6:56, I could have sworn I literally saw the digits move rapidly landing on 666 before I opened my eyes. I think I attracted something, because it's breathing in my room and when I turn around I hear it but I can't see it.

I had a dream that me and Diyahna were in a room, maybe hers. It was covered in band posters, drawings, little notes. We were in her bed, sitting face to face, talking, laughing. And then she fell off her bed laughing but as I was laughing, our voices weren't together, I realized she had stopped. I looked over and all she had was a gun jabbed to my throat. She was hysterically crying, angry at me. I looked at her solemnly, and I could see my eyes, they were dull, but dark, no life, pitch black dark. I closed my eyes as the only tear that left, and she shot me. And I was still breathing but hardly, heavily. She yelled at me, she cursed at me, kicked me in my side, and I woke up to a singing pain in my side. She told me I left her. She told me that I didn't deserve Dylon. She called me a whore, a bitch, in the worst way possible.

And the bad part was I didn't die, I looked up at the cieling, dead eyes, clenching my fists, I kept hearing her and hearing her, saying all these things, I wouldn't die. Nor would I wake up just yet.
I guess that's one thing about nightmares, they don't let you wake up, ever.

She was extremley unhappy with me, and even though she shot my throat, I gasped for air and choked up blood and all I could say was; "You can't forgive me can you, the pain I feel was all for you"
And she stopped, her eyes disappeared in a shadow behind her bangs, and disappeared like a character in the scene of a play.

I was numb, hurt and angry, at myself. I called Dylon's name... He wasn't there. Not tonight, not in this dream tonight.
Was that the last time I'll ever hear from Diyahna? Her voice?

Remember how I always said I wanted to be in a coma, wake up, maybe forget everything? Right now, despite my love for Dylon, my friends, Lindsey, Abby, Amber, Nikki, Sammi, everyone.

I just want to fade...