Key of Memory

So, it's 1:54am Tuesday May 26th 2009.

Nikki and Juan just tapped at my window. I thought I was going to open the door for them but she only wanted me to speak to her through my window. The first thing Nikki handed to me was a key "Amber wanted me to give this to you." She told me, it was a key that said 'Memory' on it. That only meant one thing and one very precious thing only, that I hold the key to Amber's memory. "Take very good care of it. DON'T.Lose.It. you hear me?" I was appalled, I finally grasped something that was in Amber's hands and when I did, my heart decided to abruptly conclude. I absolutely miss Amber. The moment my fingers touched that key I felt sort of hurt but somehow a good kind, I can't fathom it, don't ask me....
Nikki then asked me if I were alright, I answered her unintentionally because I was irrevocable on Amber. But then when I finally focused she asked me again and told me I wasn't okay, that I was a liar. Me? A falsifier? No Nikki, I was fine, I was just overwhelmed is all...
I was looking at Nikki with a calm serene tone in my eyes. Her was was quaky and her eyes seemed somehow a little bloodshot, and her eyes were big and glistening, was she crying before she came to see me?

I believe she was crying, I don't blame her though.

Meanwhile, Juan who tagged along with Nikki was occupied and highly amused with a slug that as crawling on my window, I hate slugs, their so ugly and gross ;/ Juan has always wanted to see a slug for the longest time, and I told him; 'I want a pet fuzzy caterpillar, gimiie!111shift+one'
And he just gave me a blank 'what the hell xD' expression. And then he put it on the grass, he named it Bob I think...

After they left I found some green string and put the key as a necklace around my neck. the green was suppose to be Amber because her favorite color is green. For some reason, for something so small, it's so valuable, like it holds an entire world, what will be my actual consequences if something were to happen to this delicate key? I may sound absurd but, I want to guard this key with my life. If my sister's memory's are important to her, their just as important to me, if anything were to happen with her memory, I'd give up mine for her to be happy instead of going through out her life trying to figure out many many things.

I actually rather be memoryless, I don't want to remember so many things but it wouldn't be worth the pain to not remember if that happens.

So I've been drawing this whole time, I just got done drawing my 'Queen of Heart's lolita' She's adorable.

I don't know if i want to draw anything else, I probably do...
Well, all my homework is done except for my study for my finals. gross.
I'm off to bed. More blogging tomorrow.

Kitten<3