Well, I've been better. I haven't talked to Dylon for now 2 days. This isn't a record really, but you know...
I know I know, I talk about him too much, but did I mention he's my best friend? I am concerned because he's now my ex-boyfriend. It's hard to call him a best friend when he has that label too.
Failure.
Well, anyway, I was texting Amber today, she said she missed me, I don't know what she's up to anymore but she stopped texting after I sent 'I'd like to find home soon'. Hmm, was that some sort of emotionally pathetic reply? I don't know, but she also told me Nikki comes back today. Then, everything will be back to normal again... I think.
I went to the Temple today in Miami. It was so warm, it was about 90 degrees, I hate heat... I hate it in Thailand more. Me, my mom, my grandpa, my sister and her fiancee, went to the mall. It was still raining so much, so hard...
I was looking out the window of the car on the way back to town in Coral Springs, listening to my friend's iPOD ( which i delibrately stole... sorta ) and all I could hear was Bullet for my Valentine.
I kept trying to make out shapes and faces in the sky, the weather is so bipolar. All I could see were gray and black clouds, and lightning, i could barely hear any thunder, i was too busy intuned with the music. But then I felt light, like the time I tried weed for the first time. Not really, bad example, when i tried weed i was just all dippy. But I mean, i felt like everything was slowly, slowly moving, to the point where you can see it moving but the motion too, I could hear Matt Tuck ( Bullet for my Valentine lead singer ) screaming his feelings into his lyrics flowing into my ears. I then started to realize again that everything was in silence, there is something terribly, terribly wrong, and i'm just staring out foreboding what may happen. I mean Dylon got kicked out of his house apparently... If only i could go get him, he could definitely live with me, but he's probably better off content with his friends smoking weed.
I wonder how much he's lying to me right now, honestly, our friendship, relationship, is so fucked up and over. But here we are, sorta back to each other now. Barely talking, I miss my best friend, he may have not gone anywhere, but his presence is definitely fading...
I just texted him, all I said was 'Hey.'
Nothing special. I'm hoping he answers back... but he usually never does, unless he's first to text me.
For a best friend, even if he is having his own life, doesn't it seem like he just doesn't care to make time for me? I mean by the time he finally notices that he hasn't talked to me in a long time, I've booked, I'm gone, and maybe one day he'll read this blog... I don't know if it's worth the talk anymore, it's all routine now and it's not as fun. When we were together and before that all, we would say anything, and I mean ANYTHING, we would have so much fun on the phone together, that was the only way we could spend time. Especially on the internet. I'm so far away, and now, I feel as though I'll never really get him back in my life as my Lover.
Is the distance really that worth breaking up for, leaving me
I guess I should move on, I mean, I'd actually regret my life wasting all my life waiting on him... though I do want to do it. I just can't wait to finally move, I'd love to be in his arms forever.
I suck at trying to get over such a miraculously silly boy.
I went to the Temple today in Miami. It was so warm, it was about 90 degrees, I hate heat... I hate it in Thailand more. Me, my mom, my grandpa, my sister and her fiancee, went to the mall. It was still raining so much, so hard...
I was looking out the window of the car on the way back to town in Coral Springs, listening to my friend's iPOD ( which i delibrately stole... sorta ) and all I could hear was Bullet for my Valentine.
I kept trying to make out shapes and faces in the sky, the weather is so bipolar. All I could see were gray and black clouds, and lightning, i could barely hear any thunder, i was too busy intuned with the music. But then I felt light, like the time I tried weed for the first time. Not really, bad example, when i tried weed i was just all dippy. But I mean, i felt like everything was slowly, slowly moving, to the point where you can see it moving but the motion too, I could hear Matt Tuck ( Bullet for my Valentine lead singer ) screaming his feelings into his lyrics flowing into my ears. I then started to realize again that everything was in silence, there is something terribly, terribly wrong, and i'm just staring out foreboding what may happen. I mean Dylon got kicked out of his house apparently... If only i could go get him, he could definitely live with me, but he's probably better off content with his friends smoking weed.
I wonder how much he's lying to me right now, honestly, our friendship, relationship, is so fucked up and over. But here we are, sorta back to each other now. Barely talking, I miss my best friend, he may have not gone anywhere, but his presence is definitely fading...
I just texted him, all I said was 'Hey.'
Nothing special. I'm hoping he answers back... but he usually never does, unless he's first to text me.
For a best friend, even if he is having his own life, doesn't it seem like he just doesn't care to make time for me? I mean by the time he finally notices that he hasn't talked to me in a long time, I've booked, I'm gone, and maybe one day he'll read this blog... I don't know if it's worth the talk anymore, it's all routine now and it's not as fun. When we were together and before that all, we would say anything, and I mean ANYTHING, we would have so much fun on the phone together, that was the only way we could spend time. Especially on the internet. I'm so far away, and now, I feel as though I'll never really get him back in my life as my Lover.
Is the distance really that worth breaking up for, leaving me
I guess I should move on, I mean, I'd actually regret my life wasting all my life waiting on him... though I do want to do it. I just can't wait to finally move, I'd love to be in his arms forever.
I suck at trying to get over such a miraculously silly boy.
"Always, all ways, I wanted us to be, always all ways you and me"
Going to go pack and plan with momma again.
I'm speaking with Azn Alex, I missed him so much for some reason, some strong reason. He's been able to make me happy. ^^ <3
Bye for now
Kitty<3
P.S.; Dylon is going through something, I'm hoping to be the one to make him feel better to be honest... <3
I'm speaking with Azn Alex, I missed him so much for some reason, some strong reason. He's been able to make me happy. ^^ <3
Bye for now
Kitty<3
P.S.; Dylon is going through something, I'm hoping to be the one to make him feel better to be honest... <3
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