So, I haven't posted anything in a while

It's still February at least.

So, I've been feeling really shitty lately, but I have my decent days, the weather is bipolar though, so it's doing worse than I am. I wonder how Dylon's coping right now. The other night, he went from having a good time with his buddies drinking, to... telling me how he felt. He told me he wasn't having fun anymore. And he brought out to me about Oden, his dog that died last month, that dog wasn't just a dog, Oden was his best friend. I felt a little overwhelmed, I cried a lot. He hasn't spoken up to me about any of his thoughts or feelings like that... in so long. September to be truthful. That Saturday, was well, a good day, me and him talked and I felt comfortable with him mentally.

Then Vicki was feeling horrible because Vicki didn't seem excited to get to talk to her after being in Florida for a while, which meant her being away from phone and less access to the computer. I thought it was mean. With my significant other, especially Lindsey, I'd talk to them as much as I can, and burst out in excitement, or sorrow in how much I missed them, hehe.

But times like those, I wish I could have been near Lindsey already, to fill in her gap up being upset with happiness, come over and we can make muffins or cupcakes.
A time like that I could hold Dylon, and feel what he needed to say just being close to me, and let him cry, just let him cry till he was worn out and passed out in my arms. Just like he did last year in July. He cried, and held me really really tight. He was sad. Broken. Now he's even more of a mess and he can't pick himself up. Everything of him seems to have disappeared off the Earth. But Oden is always with him. I want to help him be stronger. Mend his broken heart, his confused mind. And help find his soul back to where he can be home, and won't have to think twice or worry about finding another, because that's where he'll be.. home.

Well, on a different note, Benny is leaving for Iraq the Thirteen, OH and the Twelfth is Dylon's 17th birthday♥. I wish I could have seen Benny before he left, It's been too long since I've seen him. But he's only going for seven months this time and then he's coming back, and moving to California with his girlfriend Jamie. And I can go see him whenever I want, and hopefully I can bring Dylon! And I'm getting my hips and tongue pierced this month/reallyreallyreally soon. I sure can't wait. It's been okay, it's reallyreallyreally cold right now though, ick.

xoxo, Kitty