So it's December...

And it's a very busy month for everyone.
I'm working now and I'm happy with the money I'm getting.

It's hard to believe, it's already the 6th, and well... in 9 days to me is a bit more special than Christmas, can anyone guess what day that is?

After this month, the New Year is in progress, I wonder if i'll ever stick to a resolution. Probably not, it'll gradually work it's way somehow around... so I sort of stick to it.

I don't even remember what my resolution for this year was.

It's the Holidays now though. I wish I could see Dylon this winter break. I've been sulking in depression this entire time, and it didn't seem worth it for me to see him anyway with him and Emily in the way of being together. But she broke up with him... I don't know what happened, he didn't tell me, he never tells me many things anymore.

i just wonder if he's lost that trust in me now. Seems like everyone has, no one counts on me anymore, yet it's after a long time where they need me most and it's all awkward and i allow them to use me. Dylon's different he doesn't need me, he's strong on his own, great kid.

i still wanna see him, i wonder if it will change everything...