Everything a broken heart like mine is

A broken heart is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his phone number. A broken heart is the cold, shattering feeling you receive when you hear his name. A broken heart is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning. A broken heart is glancing at his pictures, and then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears. A broken heart is screaming and begging for a second chance inside, but not being able to say it out loud. A broken heart is the emptiness and heart wrenching feeling you encounter when you see that he is talking to other girls. A broken heart is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact be “okay”. A broken heart is having to live everyday figuring out whether it's right to hate or still love him. A broken heart is wanting to do a million and one bad and good things just to have him back. A broken heart is when you see him everyday, wishing you were right next to him lacing fingers. A broken heart is when you start crying when someone mentions his name like it's okay. A broken heart is that one day on his next birthday you tell him 'Happy Birthday' with a big smile... but since you can't spend the day and time with him, you lay at home singing happy birthday to a picture of you and him on your nightstand. A broken heart is remembering all the songs he dedicated to you. A broken heart is when you sit in the middle of your bedroom floor with a cupcake and a candle singing happy birthday to yourself, holding yourself, because he's not there to give you all the birthday wishes, kisses and cuddles. A broken heart is missing him. A broken heart is listening to that one song that makes you break down, on repeat. A broken heart is when you go from smiling uncontrollably every time you hear his voice to quiet tears for everyday that goes by without a word from him. A broken heart is when you try to ignore him but end up going out of your way just to see if you are on his mind. A broken heart is when you know you’ve been hurt, but have no idea how to fix it. A broken heart is when you finally realize that he’s everything you need… and at the same time realize he’s the one thing you can never have. A broken heart is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken then to hurt yourself trying to fix it.