I'm trapped in a World that I can't take

It's really hard to live when every breath I take keeps me here.
I really do wish I could just disappear.
Something's keeping me here.
But I've seemed to lost all hope all because I have no reassurance.
I can't escape to anyone anymore.

Everyone's gone to other things and places
My own best friend is off drinking and smoking and for some reason
I'm paranoid, i'm scared of more of his doing

i feel like i'm running out of time
i want to get out of here
i need to get out of here

why does no body see this at all
it's like reaching out my hand for someone who needs my help
is only taking my hand to help themselves and pull me down to their doom
But I guess that's what it means to be their sacrifice
taking everyone's blames
all the fucked up things done and said to me
forgiven, forgotten, patiently waited on

i'm so tired
i can't keep crying like this
i can't take it
i don't know who to turn to
or what to even do anymore
i love him
i want amber, i want nikki
i want dylon back in my arms
i wanna take him away from where he is
but he's happy there
then what am i
what am i to anyone
i can't keep this up
but i do it anyway
i'm not perfect, i know this
i'm not good enough, that's how i feel
why do i have to be on my own two feet?
do i really have to go on by myself?
who will i turn to
what will i do
why won't anyone help me