Quick post this morning... 5:44am.

I don't know what happened last night. I started getting really entirely dizzy last night. I don't remember when either.
The last thing I remember was the room tried to spin and I tried to capture my balance, confused trying to figure out what was going on with my mind.

I thought it was just a little mishap. I took a drink of my water, and I suddenly felt way too light. The last was something falling and breaking, and my head hurt really bad and I was knocked out.

My brother in law found me as it is, The glass next to me was poured and broken against my desk. My head hurt really really really bad, it still does, there's a huge bump there and it's pounding...
I just got knocked out. And I hit my head on the desk if this all makes sense I guess.

I'll have to admit, before all this I was crying. Crying like I never wanted to cry. cried because of unrequited love. Cried because I can't be in love. Cried because... I feel i've lost everything when it's all right there. I just can't do this, not right now.

My body is so cold. My brother in law didn't tell anyone, I told him not to, he came to wake me up and also check up on me this morning and told me what had happened. I was shocked to find myself in bed because I thought things were a dream but waking up to the pain in my neck and head made me realize something bad had happened. I saw all the text and im's dylon and matt sent me. Matt was entirely highly worried. Dylon is just mad... that i didn't answer him. He probably thinks i purposely ignored him.

I'm horrible, I thought I had this over with. I'm so stupid.