I think I'm bipolar

Every time I rant and vent my true feelings of Anger and Sadness.
I go back to feeling normal again.
Like how I thought my feelings of Dylon were all neutral...
I'm back to just loving him all in a half hour of telling him my problem of what's been on my mind
and I thought that my copious amount of feeling would jeopardize our friendship forever...

I guess I was just really really frustrated, which I was, but I love Dylon.
I know.. for the millionth time, I speak of his name too much.

I'm so sick right now, my throat is killing me, I may have strep throat. I've been drinking warm soup and I'm stressing my Math grade as of now. I have an F and I'm really trying my hardest to do better. My body is rejecting itself right now, and it really is killing me...

It's been raining too much lately. Way too much. But I love it... I just wish I can rollerblade as of now. I believe I should tomorrow despite the weather. Just enjoy rollerblading with a cold sprinkly feel across my skin. Into what is left of Summer we're entering Fall. Fall's so pretty up North, in my opinion with all the colored leaves, sweet soft mellow cool air. I wanna see that. Not humidity.

I'm trying to go see Dylon for my Winter break, which I don't have the slightest idea how will work but I'm trying... He's suppose to be coming down here the 18th, and the only thing I don't know about is how he's getting to my house, he's going to be in Florida for about a week, and he'll be around 4-5 hours away from where I am. I hope I get to see him. I miss him so much.

This sickness is eating me alive.

So, I've had my pictures developed and I'm looking at the pictures of me and Dylon, god he's gorgeous and his eyes are just amazing... I love him. And I hope to take more pictures together.
I loved the fact that we spent all that time together and to be detailed, I loved that we laced fingers holding hands, kissed, bit each other, had sexual intimacy, I just loved being with him.
Seeing him cry, feeling his arms tighten around me like he never wanted to let go, I should never forget that. I shouldn't doubt him. I love him.