Rainy Angelus (3:48:03 AM): It's sad for me to think this way, sad at how i've been so emotionally stupid when I wasn't even like this before I met you, I'm not saying that it's your fault because it's all just me allowing myself to do this and that

Narcotik Defect (3:48:31 AM): yea but it is all my fault

Rainy Angelus (3:48:50 AM): Why ?

Narcotik Defect (3:52:24 AM): because before me you were an innocent bubbly girl, and ive hurt you over and over and it's changed the way you are.

And now that he says that, he's right... I use to be a bright bubbly omfgiwanttostabher kind of annoying, all color, no darkness at all. Always happy, hardly down in the dumps and made every day an adventure. And best of all, that's how Dylon fell in love with me, my personality, my style, who I was, made him love me, he thought I was adorable. And it makes me wonder why he still wants me since now I'm all edgy, emotional, and a cluster fuck of things incomprehensible.