If I could turn the tables.

If I could break a guys heart for once in my life.
I just wonder what it would be like once if I could just break a boy's heart.
I've never done so in my life.

I'm the only one who takes the pain, I rather be hurt, hurt myself, than hurt others.

But lately all of that seems so numb to me, but at the same time, it gets me asphyxiated.