Apologizing is all I want to do

Now, I know. I found my reassurance, but I found it by doing the worst things possible to myself. It's like I couldn't find that when I was sober and just depressed. Drinking, wanting to smoke. This demon, the dreams.

Abby made this clear to me, Lindsey really made it clear to me
Everyone cares about me, I should suck it up
It's horrible how much of an emo bitch I've become.