Fuck it.

I loved him, that's it, I've loved him so much more than ANYONE ever could. This is stupid, I'm immature, pathetic, I don't need this, THERE'S NO NEED FOR THIS.
NO NEED FOR IT AT ALL.

I just can't stop crying, I'm in so much despair.
I just want him back, I want him back so horribly bad.
I don't want to see him, I don't even want to speak to him.

But I want him with me forever. What's the point of it anymore.
I'm falling even faster now. Not in love, but away from him.
And I'm absolutely
terrified.

Edit::

So, I was texting Dylon, he has a blog now. I wonder if he'll even bother or care to read every word in my blog, I do and have write a lot... Everytime I speak of him or think about him I just want to hurt him, but even worse I want to hurt myself far more than to ever go near him.
I want to give up...