This week's not going well for me

Being too happy is overrated, not caring makes me a bitch, caring too much makes me vulnerable.

It seems stupid how I still want the same boy, but can't even have him. And when it comes to someone else I immediately get disgusted knowing they like me back. these boys are trying to take something from me that I promised myself I'd only give up to someone I love. I don't want it right now. I don't want to think, I don't want to even breathe by the time I turn 16. But I'd be lying cause there's something I want to do before I truly want to give up for good