I stopped thinking for a minute.

And I swear I thought the whole world stopped.
I looked to my left, and I was still holding the handful of pictures of me and Dylon from last summer.
I looked over to my cat who looked at me blinking absentmindedly.
I realize that my world's crashing down on me, and I'm the only one that can stop it.
It's sickening how I let this all get to my head.
I'm basically nearly actually alone now because my attitude pushed people away.
I use to love everyone, I still do, but my absent personality ruins it.
I can't look for even a hook up, never close to, because I'm still in love with a boy
whose too far away, and acts like he never wants to stay
And apparently won't answer me.

I'm going to get my answers because I think we all know what my biggest break fall was.