If I lived off of promises, I would be dead

Dude, I'm so fucking done.
I didn't give up, I'm just done with this.
No, it's not technically giving up
Why bother when it's giving me no credit.
I'm depressed, paranoid, and sick in too deep
I'm afraid of the deep dark water, and no one's gonna help me
But who said I needed it, I can't depend on anyone but myself
But it's only me whose telling myself this, I just
I just wanna break.