Lindsey Gussler ♥♥♥ 112709

you know, i miss you. so much. i wanna be heartfelt, so why do i have such a hard time with it? I think about you. Almost every day, you find a way to slip into my mind, and I'm thinking about you again.

I miss when we talk, for hours, I miss how things were with us. I'm sorry our conversations are so short lately, I'm sorry we haven't been talking, I'm sorry if you feel neglected, I'm sorry for leaving you. Alone. I feel like I'm not there for you, I feel like something wrong is going on with you, but you tell me everything is fine. I can see past that sometimes.
Love, doll, angel, I know nothing is always as it seems. As fine as you say.
I know deep down, something is hurting you. And you keep going back to it, and it hurts you more. You say you're happy sometimes, but are you really, truly, honestly happy? If i was there in person, would you lie to my face, and tell me yes?

I miss you. I wish I was there. To make you feel alright. To make you happy, but I can't be. All I can do is this, and try to make you feel that I actually deeply care about you, and love you. Even if lately, it feels like we've been drifting. I still look at your pictures, your pages, I check. I check on you.

I don't really have a computer at the moment.. that's one of the reasons we haven't been talking.
You know how I told you my charger was broken?
Well, my dad's charger ended up breaking too, so now we have nothing to charge our laptops with. Sometimes, I get on the desk top, but it drives my nerves because it's so old. It's slow.

If you ever need me, you know you can call me. I'll talk about anything, I'll say anything, to make you feel better. Even if it might feel awkward over the phone, I'll try my best. I'll ignore it.
Even if I'm not online, and there's something going on, message me, IM me, tell it to me. So when I do get on, I'll have something to say.

I know lately, you don't want to bother me with your problems, but that alone bothers me. You not wanting to tell me. Do you honestly believe I don't want to hear about what's going on in your life? Don't just tell me you're happy, because you don't want to be a burden. Tell me, come to me, don't run away from me.


You are truly one of my most amazing best friends.
I don't have many, you know, I don't message people saying things like this all the time, because I simply do not care. But you've gotta know, if I come on this computer, just to tell you this, that I care about you. And I'm sorry this is so long, but I just needed to say it.

Please, don't let yourself drown. You know you can be a great kid, because you are. You're there for me, even if you don't think so. But you need to be there for yourself now. You need to take care, and look after yourself. I know it's hard, but I don't want anything to happen to you.


Sometimes, you're so fragile, you know?