I don't wanna go another day...

So i'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.

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So, I made a new friend, his name is Matthias. He's a cool dude. He made me a poem, as posted last entry, it was sweet. But there's nothing to us. We just met, we haven't spoken that much to determine either of us liking each other, so stop getting ideas D:< RADARADA.

Dylon actually sort of got worked up over us a bit. Cause I got sort of dippy happy with Matt. He found me hypocritical because I get so worked up of him being friends with a girl. But he apologized after I told him that Matt was only being sweet. Besides I liked the fact that he made a poem for me, no one ever has before....

I wonder if our friendship is just falling out of our hands lately. We've been arguing and bickering here and there, mostly because of me. I mean, he's my best friend now. Yeah I love him, but to be honest, we're young, I'm still young, I'm not going to kill myself over this. If me and Dylon get together in the future good for us, really that be great. But right now being best friends is the greatest thing. Someone who I can go to for anything, understands me, vice versa.

Here's a what if though: What if me and Matthias got together? Hmm... o.o If we did would Dylon be mad? What would happen to our friendship? :/ I don't know. Like I said, me and Matt are friends, nothing going on between us, plus we just met you know bloggy? Yes I just called you Bloggy, oh lawd. If anything progressed more between me and Matthias. Then well... I don't know, I just hope Dylon doesn't abandon me. :/ He's the only true best friend I've got. He's always been there for me, and he told me he loves me, and I'll never forget that. true best friends for life. He's my Guardian Angel, I'm always going to break anyone's neck that tries to take his wings.

I'm always going to remember all the memories me and Dylon had. NEVER assume or get me wrong. Dylon means a whole fucking lot to me.

Whatever happens, I'll take charge. I'm not going to be a failure no longer.