I'm a dissapointment.

"It's sad that you were once this innocent girl and now I have you smoking"

That's what Dylon said.
I do remember when I was all full of glitters and cupcakes
and sugar coated all over
full of color
and always always always ecstatic
without rollin and drifting high

I wish I could do better
I feel like he's so highly disappointed in me

I'm actually sick of all the dark depressive shit
I need to get out of it
I want to party
Keep listening to my techno and hardstyle day and night
just like i aways have

I vowed that at the beginning of the year no matter what shit happens, even if I am a little unorganized mess. And I told myself that I'd let things happen and keep up, especially with Dylon no matter what he put me through. I vowed to be forever happy. I'm sick of the messed up friendships and them lying and talking shit about me, I'm sick of being depressed and having negative emotions.

I'm starting new, for the better, for God, me, Dylon and everyone else.